When You Can’t Find Your Way…

Dear friends,

*Spoiler alert:  read through the post to hear my BIG NEWS announcement and an original song.*

Congratulations to our “Faith (over) Fear” pendant winner!  Thank you to everyone who entered the giveaway!  If you haven’t had a chance to read my “I’m No Longer a Slave to Fear” post (and hear my song on YouTube), I invite you to check them out.  May they encourage you to live out your days in FAITH, not fear.

To continue our “Faith Over Fear” theme, I would like to share an original song with you.  The reason why I “segue” into that is because I used to be scared of sharing my songs.  “Scared” probably isn’t the best word for it.  More like TERRIFIED.

The song I’m going to share with you is the VERY FIRST SONG I ever wrote.  I was sixteen years old.  TWENTY years ago.  I still remember it like it was yesterday.

I remember not being able to sleep in the middle of the night because the words and melody of the song kept coming to me.  I wasn’t even trying to write a song; I had no song-writing aspirations at that time.  But I couldn’t shake what God was laying on my heart.

I remember quietly tiptoeing into the living room, sitting at the piano, and writing down the lyrics and the notes of the melody so I wouldn’t forget them.  That song started it all.  It started my love of song writing.  It’s what inspired me to learn how to play the guitar (the same Argentine classical guitar that you see in my YouTube videos) and to acquire a hand-held tape recorder so that I could record and save my songs.

Amy young guitar

From then to now…

While packing boxes for our upcoming move, I recently came across that little hand-held recorder, and I also came across an old cassette tape of my songs that I had recorded several years ago.  Yes, a cassette tape.

As I held these items in my hands, items that had sat in dusty boxes for years and years, the memories started flooding back.  Memories of all the hopes and dreams I had of becoming a songwriter… and the fears and insecurities that stopped that dream in its tracks.

Today, I am no longer a slave to fear.  It shouldn’t matter what other people think about my songs.  It shouldn’t matter how my voice sounds when I sing them.  It shouldn’t matter if I’m “pitchy” or if the lyrics “don’t vibe.”  What matters, is that God inspired those songs within me for a purpose, and I believe He wanted some of them to be shared with others.  Just like this blog.

The songs don’t necessarily need to be published or need to be sung one day by a Christian music artist.  If they just reach ONE person.  If they just touch ONE soul… even if that one soul only ends up being my own… that’s what matters.  It’s not about me.  It’s all about praising HIM and making Him known.

Do YOU have something inside of you— something inspired by God— that is meant to be shared with others?  Maybe it’s a song, a work of art, a book or poem, or maybe it’s an act of service that God has placed on your heart.  Whatever it is, I encourage you to step out in faith and share it.  You have nothing to lose, but God has all the glory to gain, and He will use your obedience to bless others.

Faith over fear…

I mentioned earlier that I was packing boxes for an upcoming move, and I mentioned in my “I’m No Longer a Slave to Fear” post that my family is going through some changes.  Truth be told, we are selling our house and downsizing.  I mean REALLY downsizing.  Remember my “Going Tiny with a BIG God” post last year?  Yep.  We are going TINY.  We are moving into a two-bedroom fifth wheel (an RV)— a tiny home on wheels.  We are downsizing from 1500 sq. ft. to 400 sq. ft.

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My two-year-old has already nicknamed it the “bus house.”

Nervous?  You bet.  Stressed?  Yep!  But I’m covering my fears with FAITH.  Faith that God has a plan.  Faith that God will help us get out of debt as we save money by “living tiny”.  Faith that God will bring my little family of four closer together than we have ever been (literally, emotionally, and spiritually).  Faith that God will help us focus on what truly matters.  We don’t need a big house filled with “stuff.”  All we need is God and each other.  Faith and family first.

Will we always live in a fifth wheel?  I don’t know.  We’ll try to live there for as long as we can and take advantage of travelling together as often as we can, as time and job schedules allow.  My two boys may eventually outgrow it one day, at which time we may happily decide to move back into an actual house again.

But until then, we’re trusting God, and putting one step in front of the other.  Trusting that our house will sell quickly.  Trusting that we’ll get used to the cramped living quarters (but we’ll thankfully be surrounded by beautiful, spacious outdoors on a lakeside campground!).  Trusting that we can live without a dishwasher and washing machine.  Trusting that the boys will easily transition to a new school and new daycare, and that I’ll eventually be able to homeschool them when we’re out of debt.  Trusting that we’ll learn the ins and outs of full-time RVing.  We’ve got a lot of trusting to do….

I’ll be completely honest, ‘yall.  My biggest fear at this point with our move is the weather.  We live in Central Texas.  Tornado alley.  And it’s Spring.  Storm and tornado season.  You don’t want to be in a fifth wheel during a severe (high winds) thunderstorm, much less a tornado.

But we have an emergency plan in place.  We have our “bug out bag” all prepared, we’ll be getting a storm radio, and I have four different weather apps on my phone.  We have sturdy, concrete bathroom “shelters” nearby that we can take cover in if needed.

But most important of all, we have an almighty God.  And trust me, I’ll be singing “I’m No Longer a Slave to Fear” in my head anytime a bad storm is brewing, I can tell you that much.

So that’s my BIG (but tiny) news.  That’s my big leap of faith.

And here is my very first song I ever wrote.  Another big leap of faith.

The lyrics and some of the melody have changed over the years, but the underlying tune and the words to the chorus have remained unchanged since that very first day… twenty years ago.

I share it with you today to let you know that 1) God is bigger than your fears; 2) He is the only way to true hope and peace; and 3) He loves you no matter what and will guide you down His path if you choose to take it.

So, remember, when you can’t find your way… turn to THE Way.  Turn to Jesus.

John 14:6, “Jesus answered, ‘I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.’”

“The Way” (Original Song- YouTube Video):

The Way video pic

— Amy

And here’s another original song of mine that I shared last year.

“I Will Give You Rest” (Original Song- YouTube video):

Rest video pic

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